I Quit Music Five Years Ago Due To ‘Deep Dark Depression’ — Rapper Eva Alordiah
Elohor Eva Alordiah, the Nigerian rapper, better known as Eva Alordiah, has revealed that she gave up on her music career five years ago due to ‘deep, dark, depression.
Eva took to her social media accounts to disclose her struggle with depression and how she was able to overcome that phase of her life. She further revealed that, presently, she now owns a tech start-up and she is recording music again.
Part of her statement on her battle with depression via her Twitter handle reads, “5 years ago I gave up my dream of becoming the greatest female rapper in Africa. I was suffering a deep, dark depression. Today, I own a Tech Start-up, I have a new life & I’m recording again! Here’s what I have learned about giving up your dreams, Depression & Finding yourself.
“You are an Artist, You are NOT your Art. Over the years I had become identified with what I did —Eva The Rapper – I didn’t know myself beyond that. It has taken years of persistent introspection, meditation & patience to know myself and stand apart from my work.
She continued, “I now understand depression as a Spiritual experience- a shedding of old layers, the stripping away of illusion, a coming face to face with all that isn’t so I can see what IS I am not my thoughts, I am not my Body. I am not my accomplishments. I AM //not medical advice.
“The Depression was the pathway to my Awakening. It forced me to give up who I thought I was, to block off everyone else and their dogmas, and to accept a state of nothingness. I found peace when I accepted myself as No thing, No one, No me. //not medical advice.
“Your Purpose in Life has nothing to do with making Money & getting Fame. I was famous, yet I was dying daily in the loneliness of my privacy. I found Purpose when I learned that my Gifts were given me by the Creator to help people Focus on serving people, all else is bullshit
“Fame can Destroy you if you are not grounded in your Source. Everyone knew who I was, but I looked in the mirror & was lost! I committed myself to KNOWING my Self & God within. I questioned everything & searched in weird places for ancient wisdom. If you Seek you shall find.” (sic)